Introductions were always strange for me. I am shy, yet outgoing around the people I am most comfortable with. I sometimes feel really awkward and uncomfortable on stage when I am singing, probably because it is where I am the most vulnerable. I am funny (I at least think I am) and love connecting with other people. I am a feminist. I am anxious. I am passionate and honest.
I grew up in a lot of different places. Some scary, some dreadful, and some calm. The one thing they all had in common was that none felt like home. Like a sanctity, my music has always been my escape and one true love. Music is my home.
Throughout my life, I’ve had a hard time describing my feelings and thoughts. It feels like a barrier of emotions preventing me from fully expressing my true self. The only anecdote to this barrier is my music. Within my music, I create this beautiful anomaly of art that truly represents my experiences and sentiments.
Somewhere along the way, I lost myself to the everyday strife of adulthood, and I left music for a little while. I went silent. I went to college, received a degree, and experienced my own hardships. Throughout the course of my day job and small projects to find meaning and purpose, none of them made my heart jump. I lacked the passion and craving for my career pursuits that I had within music. I didn’t want to be silent anymore.
In late 2017, one of the most important people in my life passed away, which changed my entire perspective on life. Not only did she remind me that I was wasting my life away without music, but reminiscing her life dedication to what she loved changed my perspective on my own life. Life is a funny thing, short, and funny. We must spend it doing what we love the most. We must spend it doing the thing that our heart belongs to, even if it is the most difficult transition we will ever have to make. I promise that being true to your soul is worth it.
A friend once told me that I was selfish for keeping my voice from others. Now that I am older, I understand exactly what she meant by that. She meant that, “To whom much is given, much will be required.” I want to share this aspect of my life with all of you. I want to share my life with you through my music.
I hope my music makes you feel something. I can’t promise it will always make you feel happy, but I can promise it will always be true. I can promise that I will always be myself through this journey. I hope that my music inspires someone to push their boundaries and live their true selves. I am not just doing this for me, but I am doing this for all of you. If we’re not doing it for others, what are we doing it for?